Saturday, December 6, 2008

Dancing Tonight!

I am going to see a show tonight to see one of my favorite musicians, Mike Doughty!

I'm looking forward to dancing and having a great time!

My physical issues can take a back seat for now.

It's nice to have an escape from reality once in a while.

Let's hope my physical issues won't get in the way tonight, I want to live in the moment and have a good time.

Fingers' crossed!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Physical pain getting in the way

So, i've been experiencing some physical aches and pains recently that seem to be getting worse and worse. I woke up this morning barely able to make a fist with either of my hands, this has been going on for a few weeks now. Most of my muscles and joints are achy. It could be the Femara drug that i'm taking, but of course I immediately think " its back!".

My body has recently become weaker as well. It reminds me of when I was in treatment. Every move seems challenging. I'm not able to move as quickly as I have been able to in recent past. I was walking my friends' dog and we usually jog a bit to get him tired out so he won't pull me quite so much and my body just couldn't do it for long or very well.

I woke up this morning and it really hit me. What next? If i go off the Femara there is only one other drug in the class of 3 available and if that doesnt work then i'm offered Tamoxifen which I really don't want to take. I know thousands of women who take it with huge success but my body is resisting it.

Other drugs that i'm currently taking are also pooping out or have awful side effects. I'm running out of options there too.

It all just makes me want to throw my hands up and crawl into bed for the winter. why can't we hibernate like the bears do?

Then i came across this video a little while ago and it cheered me up, i hope i was able to post it here. I LOVE Ani Difranco and seeing her LIVE is quite the experience if you ever have a chance, go see her!

enjoy and peace out,.... i'm going to go hide my head for a while but i'll be back out before Spring, no worries!